So i had my gallbladder out a month and a half a go.
But i’m still feeling pain there, through to the back.
I’m nauseous, and i have a low grade fever.
and my bp is high(at least for me). 145/105 pulse 113
I think its too far from the surgery to be some kind of infection
but i’m puzzled as to why i’m still having pain there and why its spreading across my abdomen.
Like i’m sure it’s realted to one of my diseases, but damn ittttt.
I was suppose to be better.
I mean i dont think some people get it.
Do you know what osteoarthritis is?
Literally fucking bone on bone contact, all day.
The bones in all my joints literally rub together, all day, everyday.
I mean, can able bodied people even imagine that kind of pain?! I don’t think they comprehend how painful it is….
My knees fuckin ache today
and my shoulder has dislocated, twice.
Whine Whine whine, bitch, whine whine. It fucking hurts, and i hate this rn.
And i hate being blamed for it as well.
What i will never understand is why able bodied individuals get to:
-Decide what is a disability and what isn’t
- Pass judgement on our appearance
- Decide whether or not we can work
- Decide that our pain “isn’t that bad”
- Decide whether we are worthy of certain aids
- Decide what medications we can/cannot use to treat pain
It’s like, hey, why don’t you dislocate a few joints and then i’ll tell you “You know, i have this wheelchair here to bring you into the hospital, but you know it doesn’t look like you’re in that much pain, so go park your car way at the end of that parking lot, then walk back over here on that dislocated hip, i mean it can’t be that bad. Have you considered that maybe it’s your weight? and you know i’d give you something for pain, but it can be addictive for some individuals, so why don’t you just grin and bear it?”
I think one of the hardest things about being sick is when you really need people but they are all preoccupied with their normal lives, and then the pain just envelops you and you cry yourself to sleep alone. I really hate that feeling, this feeling.
Feeling shitty from this pain, and i just want to cry forever ok.
Just finished all the editing, will be out tomorrow :3 I hope you guys will all watch and share it. :)
SHIT PEOPLE SAY TO PEOPLE WITH CHRONIC ILLNESSES
Can you guys give me some shit that people say to you that absolutely annoy the crap out of you? I lost my old list so now i need a new one, and i need your help. :) Comment or submit to my inbox if you want, thanks loves. :)
Iron Supplements have the shittiest after-taste. I swear, it’s like a deepthroated a roll of pennies.
I had surgery on tuesday.
Other than family and chronic illness peoples(on here and facebook), none of my friends wished me good luck.
After surgery, i had one friend(who isn’t related to me or in my chronic pain group), check on me and take my mind of the pain for a few hours.
My best friend hasn’t even texted me in two weeks, all my other friends are too busy with their babies or their jobs or their video games to care.
I had two surgeries, double the risk that i could have died. It’s pretty sad to know that only a handful of people would care if anything ever happened. Its pretty depressing that no one can take a little while out of their life to distract me from this gnawing, ripping pain. I get that this is something that is always butting it’s head into my friendships, but it doesn’t mean i can always go through it alone.
Very sore and crampy, and achy, and tight. I have six incisions, and they all feel really tight, like they’re going to pop open. I’m super lethargic and can’t see straight. My stomach is also extremely swollen. Everything just hurts so bad. :(