I hate that i’m running out of pain medicine. I hate that people who fake things get pain meds easier than me, someone who actually needs it. I hate when people say it could be worse. I hate when i have to suffer, and go without for days, even when my pain is really bad, because i have to save it for the excruciating days. I hate that anyone able bodied who dislocated would be in the er, on pain meds. I hate being sick. I hate that people glamorize pain pills. I hate that people glamorize illnesses and disabilities. I hate that i didn’t ask for this. I hate it.
I have really bad hip/sciatic pain. And I haven’t done anything today that would warrant this amount of pain. Which makes me think I may be getting my period. Which, due to several months of this type of thing happening, makes me think I may have to add sciatic endometriosis to my list, and yes apparently it’s possible. Either that or this kidney infection isn’t going away, even on high dose cipro. Both make me concerned.